Final Friday of 2006, Final Thought of 2006.

Well, its December 29, 2006. The Last Friday of the year. For me, this year was both good and bad. It equally effected me negatively and positively. I began the year good, working at the RRSB. And I'm ending it on a bittersweet note. I'm leaving RRSB for a better job, but I am leaving a job that I really enjoy. The year also saw my heart broken twice. One just today, the other earlier this year. As I won't be able to bear that pain, I will not discuss it. Well, at least one. Today was my last day at RRSB with everyone there. I said my goodbyes, I said my farewells. But one goodbye was quite the hard one to make. You see, in recent weeks. I've been talking to Irma, this girl I met while on lunch a few months ago. At first it was a sort of a hello and bye. But it grew beyond that. She began to seem interested in me, she even came 2 days in a row, which was a shock as it was only a few days before that. The weeks went on and we began to grow closer. And she then got my number and I got her's. It then went from just text messages to actually talking on the phone. And me having a weak heart, began to fall for this girl. And as the weeks went on this fall began to increase in speed until I finally hit the bottom of the crush well and was completely crazy for her. Well during this "fall" I got the call from The city, for which I will be starting on Tuesday. And the news was great, I got hired for work at a job where the pay is good! I was happy. But it wasn't until later that I realized, that my days with Irma, were numbered. I then began to have a confused heart, happy for the job, but sad for the loss. When I left today, I left also confused in emotions. I was happy that I got to see her, but sad that I might be the last I will. I was happy that I got a hug and a kiss from her, but sad that I got the a kiss that till this moment, is still fresh on my lips and cheek. I was happy that I got this better job, but sad that I wont feel her arms around me again. The tears almost came out at one point, but I held them back. I continued my work and fought them all afternoon. After my goodbye's to all my co-workers, I finally said my final goodbye and left. Its not my actual last day, I go back on Monday for my FINAL day, but it was my last day with all my co-workers. And after a year of up's and down's, and just alot of shit....I can say that they are some of the best people to work with, and I will forever miss their company. I now sit here at home. Dwelling on these thoughts that are just churning in my head. What a day it has been, really. What a day. I loss a girl who I was never with, I said goodbye to some amazing workers, and I am about to leave a job that I can honestly say, I enjoyed almost all my 8 hours there. But its Friday, its 11:08 and I guess I'll go for a ride. Whatever it might be, I'll just end it with. My new year's wishes and thought are this. No matter what happens in the future, I will forever look back and remember everyone and everything that has had some sort of effect on me, either good or bad. Its all on how you look at it, and as hard as it is going to be to fight these emotions which are building by the hour, I will look forward and face these new challenges with open arms. And if need be, a closed fist. Happy New Year!