A painful love.......

When one is in love, or so they think they are...the pain that is created by the one you love is far greater than any other pain you can have. For me, its been like this for quite some time. There is this girl you see, who I have deeply fallen for. Not for her looks but rather what makes her who she is, and as cliche as that may sound, its all true. I love everything about her..her smile, her laugh, the way she looks when shes happy, the way she looks when she's sad. I love it when she chuckles, everything about her has me goo-goo. The way she talks, thinks and walks. Her eyes how beautiful they are as well. Everything about her is amazing. There are moments that I wonder, why did I fall for her, knowing that she wouldnt love me or feel for me as I feel for her. Yet still i remain with this feeling...with this emotion. I wish there were words to express exactly how I feel...but I have yet to find them. At times she'll let me hold her hand, huger even. But a kiss is one thing she'll never let me have. ....what am i to do :(