A Poem for a girl

This is a poem I'm thinking of giving her with 1 rose, and a gift on Valentine's day. She loves Aaliyah so I got her a calendar of her. And I did order on December 20th a Custom CD from NB Ridaz with a custom version of (Pretty Girl) but dam money in the bank wasnt there when they tried to cash it. So im pissed off about that. But here's the poem I'm thinking of giving her along with that gift and a rose, or maybe another type of flower, if only i knew what types would be nice and unique, just like her.

----------------The Poem

My emotions burn out of control
My heart tells me to go
My mind says it is not to be
My thoughts come and go
But always of you

There is a time for every love
Our time is not now
In the years to come I will wonder how our love would have grown
If only given the chance

If I only had a chance
to tell you how I feel,
and a chance to kiss you
a kiss to set the deal.
I may not be the one for you
But, atleast give me a chance

The Beggining of a New Me???

I know its late, but I really dont care. HAPPY NEW YEARS!!!.. ok well, it's a new year and I guess like almost everyone else, I have some resolutions to do. First of all I want to loose alot of the weight I have gained, dont beleive me look at my mblog you'll see me. I want to get to a point where I can be healthy, do what I want to do, and not hesitate because of my looks. I'm not like that as much as I used to , but it would be nice if I wasnt at all like that period. And my other new thing is that I need to find my ass a new job! I'm currently a security officer without a post (on non-paid leave) hard to explain but I'll try. I was working at 120 South Spring Street Caltrans Building in Los Angeles since around october, and well on January 1, 2005 was my last day there, they let me go. Not fired, but just laid off. Well my dumbass instead of taking unemployment until January 24, 2005 when in that time I'll go work at the Academy Awards, I accepted a new post that was at the Department of Corrections. Well turns out that in that post your life is constantly in danger and well, getting paid only 9.98 an hour to have your life at the risk of ending is not good for me so I dropped it and now I'm screwed because I cannot get unemployment. So now I have to sit here, wait to get my check for those 4 days of work I did till the 1st and then work at the Awards show. So im like pissed off about that. And then there's that girl thing I have going on (another reason why I want to loose the weight). Well anyways, so yea so far not so good. I think Im gonna have to make money last now because i dont know if im gonna have a job or not after feb when the awards are over. We'll see how it goes, oh and lets not forget Valentine's day is comming up and yea I'm all fucken mad, sad and just bummbed about that too.