what the fuck is wrong with me!!! I'm a guy and arent suppose to be acting all like this. I saw her again today. And to my suprise, when I saw her, it gave me butterflies in my stomach. A feeling that no other girl that I was crushing on ever gave me. A feeling that to me, and maybe only me, shows that there's something there. I cannot stop thinking about this girl...and the images I get in my mind sometimes make me smile, and many others, make me cry. Toda, monday, was the day that she said we might do something, but like always she either backed out or for some other reason, its not gonna happen. I know that many may think im a bitch, a pussy and everything else for feeling like this, but its me thats how I feel and that is who I am. Songs have played a big role in making me feel this way. Songs like "Everytime I close my eyes" by babyface. And songs that hit the spot like "Back at one" by Brian McKnight and "Have You Ever" by Brandy. I mean those are a few songs that can really tell whats going on....but the one that just bring tears in my eyes are If I Aint Got You by Alicia Keys. enough about songs, u know what I mean. Sometimes I sit there wondering, why do I feel such a way for this girl? why do I like her so much? why do I persue something that obviously is WAY out of my reach? Christmas is near, and new years is too, hopfully I might spend time with her. even if its only for 5 minutes.