Rained out, Left Out....My own Dam Problem

On Tuesday (Yesterday) me and a couple of friends went to Knotts Berry Farm. We went, had a good time, it was ok. With the exception of the following.... Before leaving ON TIME, we drove around like dumbasses because some people forgot to take things, or they wanted to change or whatever...THEN we fucken drove all around looking for an ATM I guess and well, at that point the people in my truck and me, decided fuck it, we're leaving! so we took off. When arriving at knotts after a LONG ass drive to knotts via the 105 FWY East, to the 60 South, to the 91 East.....at around 6 - 7pm on Tuesday (october 26, 2004)......for those who were there you'll know what im talking about...The fucken traffic was ..just mad! well after getting there, we finally made it to the park, but not after going through a persons lawn. Anywho, we got there and when we got there...NO PARKING!!! I was like BITCH!! so we finally found a line to get it. Well right when we got to the point where it turns......they close the lane, but not before this chick (BITCH) car pulls up and say's if they can get in front..I said no (why after all of that am I going to let some bitches in front of me), well after I said no I just began to drive. Well soon enough I heard them start talking shit, but I didnt do anything until we began to move..I breaked checked them and then I blocked them all over the road, they got lucky they turned cuz nah man,,I was stressing pretty bad. Well soon enough we are in the park. ANd well the only people I really cared about kicking it with were my friend of 12, her boyfriend and my best friend...the 3rd one can suck a dick. Anywho, so we were there and ... it was Pouring rain. I in my head wanted to go cuz who the fuck is stupid enough to stay out at night in the poring rain? I mean dam its not smart...who gives a shit if its not "COOL" or whatever but anywho, I was their ride and I wasnt about to ruin their night, until the other pep's we went with did. So we ended up going home and just finishing off like that. But the other thing I want to talk about is something that has been bugging me. See I have this bestfriend of mine, who knows this guy that I know too that likes her....well what bugs me is that when the 3 of us go out, this fag is always being all touchy touchy shit and its like fuck, have some fucken kind of respect or whatever it is u call it.....why are you gonna do that shit while Im just here like a fucken taxi driver just doing nothing while their over there holding hand and all that stupid shit. I mean fuck I know there might be something there,, but not infront of me when its only me, and them 2. Its really makes me feel left out and shit. But hey no one gives a shit, but its the last time I go out with him......with her its different cuz she means the world to me, but yea. And well I have to say this first. I dont like her, as a boyfriend girlfriend thing, cuz I have this REALLY strong crush/love lust over this other girl...and thats a problem at that, but for some reason when I see them 2 all doing thats stuff (hugging and holding hands) i cant help but feel jealouse...I really dont know why though....I dont like her that way, and well if I dont why would I feel like that. I hope she never reads this because knowing her she wont want to talk about it, she will stop talking to me, and loosing her will be loosing a BIG part of my life, she just doesnt know how much she means to me. I wish I could hug her all the time to show her, or be closer, but i guess not. Its a strange thing. Lets just prey she dont read this.